Monday, August 30, 2021

Dress for Success

 Usually, credits appear at the end. This time, they'll appear at the beginning.

Thanks to: 

Aviva Dunsiger @avivaloca for her two blog posts, one on Clothing, COVID and Unexpected Decisions, and the other on Clothes Shopping Be[ing] a Sign of Something More.

Doug Peterson @dougpete for his #twioe review that led me to Aviva's writing, as well as his clothing reflection blog post. (Doug, for what it's worth, I had school clothes, play clothes, and church clothes too growing up!)

Matthew R Morris @callmemrmorris for two tweets on August 27 about beard trimming and professional aesthetics

The TDSB TL Expected Practice Writing Team - Mark, Dawn, Wafaa, Kim, Wendy, and Andrea - for being such a lovely group of people (inside and out) and allowing me to take and publish our team shot here. It was such a joy to work with you all!

You can see in this photo that I'm no fashionista. I'm wearing my "When in doubt, visit the library" shirt and only recently got rid of all of the animal hoodies I was renowned for wearing. I'm not really great at dressing professionally. When I first was accepted into the Faculty of Education (at York), my parents bought me a coat that they thought would be appropriate for a teacher to wear. I still have that coat. I don't wear it often. I can "fake" it with some business casual outfits, but if I'm more inclined to wear it to a conference to impress people, rather than to school to work in, then it's not an actual teaching ensemble for me.



It's important to unpack some of the classist and gendered assumptions that accompany ideas around teacher attire. I'm no expert on the subject but my attempts at initial research just made me irritated. When I tried to do a Google search on the topic, I found articles such as Reasons Why Teachers Should Have a Dress Code (which was surprisingly one of the most balanced portrayals, with three reasons why they shouldn't and four why they should) a research paper on The Effect of Teachers' Dress on Students' Attitudes and Students' Learning (from a post-secondary view that did more about supporting student biases than about anything else), Dressing (Teachers) For Success (from an admin POV, where they talk about the "controversial" decisions around stockings and blue jeans), Teacher Attire Matters, and Here's Why (which made me bristle because the message was it's not okay for a police officer to reprimand a speeding teacher in the same way he/she would scold a speeding teen), Professional Wardrobe Tips for Teachers (by the NEA, who say at the end of the article, "Thrift shops are a good place to find bargains, but that may not be a good idea for teachers, Weingarten cautions: “Kids can be so critical of what their teachers wear.”", which made me wonder what they considered "thrift"),  What Is The Dress Code of an Elementary Teacher (a 2004 article that pronounced "T-shirts and sweats don't belong in the classroom, nor do shorts"). and Tips for Dressing Like a Professional Teacher (which was the most "reasonable" of the articles, although I chafed at the "age-appropriate" comment). Many of these articles do more to reinforce stereotypical ideas - don't even get me started on the race and size issues that underlie many of these position pieces. (For instance, all the models are white people - are natural or Black hair choices such as corn rows "unsuitable teacher attire"? What about tattoos?)

If you do an image search for "professional dress for teachers", you will see plenty of skirts and dresses, which are usually not part of my rotation AT ALL. Young children especially like to touch legs (bare or stockinged) and it's not practical when sitting on the floor or running around. This fits with what Aviva was discussing with regards to her criteria for selecting clothes (i.e. their compatibility with paint, mud, floor time, outdoor time, and creatures) . 

Aviva said in her August 15 post that she'd prefer to be purchasing school supplies than buying clothes. Ditto. I'm not a huge fan of clothes shopping, although it depends on the circumstances (e.g. I enjoyed those Weekenders clothing parties - see https://www.weekenders.ca/ for an explanation of the phenomenon, - and searching thrift stores with my sister and daughter are fun times), and others presume differently. For instance, my spouse is convinced that I actually own more than the average amount of shoes for someone in my income bracket. I disagreed; I own 15 pairs of shoes but this tally includes one pair of bowling shoes, one pair of flip flops, two pairs of Crocs and two pairs of Converse, and excludes my rain boots and winter boots - is he right? 


Having said I don't really like clothes shopping most of the time, I just spent more money than I anticipated on matching thread and buttons to repair and alter some clothes owned by my family members, and sometimes it's easier to just buy.

Tangent: I spent the weekend hemming pants, sewing seam splits and other seamstress activities, which was quite a bittersweet task. Originally, I was intimidated to learn how to sew because my mother was so good at it. I felt like I needed to learn because she wouldn't be around forever. At my request, my mom started to teach me how to sew (see the 2016 story here), then I took lessons from someone else and now in 2021, she's still around but her advanced dementia makes it impossible for her to operate her sewing machine safely anymore, so she's here but not. Returning to the original "thread" ...

My recent clothing journey also involved me resetting my internal "files" about myself. It took several returns for me to finally accept what my new size guidelines are and to purchase within them. It's better to be comfortable with a larger number on the tag. 

So, what's now in Diana's closet, if all the animal hoodies are gone? Well, I still am attached to my ponchos, which are perfect for layering. I bought significantly more blouses or dress shirts than I owned previously. I have quite a few rompers / onesies / pantsuits but fewer dresses. I still fit into many of those Weekender jacket/pants combos, so I still have those. I bought more jeans (after despairing that I could no longer fit into almost any of my jeans and giving away what no longer worked - thank you Value Village!) but I also have slacks.  Flowy Fairweather pants and long shorts are also part of my collection. Ironically, I think more of my outfits fit the "teacher professional dress" category.

PS - Happy 19th birthday today to my beloved son, Peter! Love you to the moon and back, Peter.


Monday, August 23, 2021

Love Languages

 I'm late to the party but that's okay. Dr. Gary Chapman wrote a book back in 1992 called The 5 Love Languages. (It was republished in 2015.) Wikipedia says, 

According to Chapman, the five ways to express and experience love called "love languages" are:

 For some reason, this topic arose while I was in Calgary, and when I returned home, I took the free online quiz from the Love Languages website. Every member of my immediate family took the quiz and posted the results to our family Discord channel. Here were my results:


This has interesting implications for me in my family as well as for me as a teacher. It's important to note that I have neither read the original book, nor have I read any of the relevant sequels (e.g. The 5 Love Languages of Children, Discovering the 5 Love Languages at School, or The 5 Languages of Appreciation in the Workplace). Maybe some of my answers might be found in those publications, but in the meantime, here are my insights and further questions.

If you cannot read the visual, my top two results were for Words of Affirmation, at a whopping 37%, followed by Physical Touch at 30%. Quality Time and Acts of Service were tied at 13% and Receiving Gifts was the lowest at 7%. This feels like an accurate profile. Even just perusing my blog shows me that I love to hug (while still respecting boundaries and consent, even at ECOO conferences and as early as in 2014 when I hypothesized that my inclination for embraces was partly due to my upbringing) and that many of my "tribute posts" are essentially words of affirmation for colleagues that I admire. It's why my favourite end-of-the-year gifts from students always involve some sort of words - one of my classroom students obviously inferred this quite well, as her gift included a six-page letter. 

Guess what? Even though my husband's statistics are in the exact same order (with a much more even spread between the top four), my own children have different priorities - their top result was Quality Time. It made me more aware that they might feel a bit drowned or smothered by the constant barrage of hugs/kisses/pats, and flood of compliments, praise and warms words of affection that I frequently direct toward them. So, lately I've been trying to show how much I care more by doing things with them. I hang out in the living room with them. My daughter and I go out on errands together - she's been putting together a new cosplay outfit and we've driven all over the GTA collecting parts. 

My husband also theorizes that after living with me for so long (July 5, 2022 will be our 25th wedding anniversary), he's actually learned to be more like me in terms of affection-giving and -receiving. I'm curious to see what his "pre-Diana statistics" would have been. 

As a teacher, there are some definite lessons for me to learn. I searched but couldn't find the joke tweet by a male teacher who said there was no way he was revealing to his students and staff that his primary love language was physical touch. That's a big no-no for several reasons. I was going to try to encapsulate some of my ideas in a series of "I will" and "I will not" statements, but they mostly boil down to "respect and honour the ways students and colleagues show they appreciate you, and when appropriate, reciprocate in similar ways". Maybe this is why I've been spending time over the summer with some of my delightful colleagues, visiting retired teachers, shopping at farmers' markets, and chatting together via the House Party app.



I tell my friends and family that I love them (using the L word) and I do. (Apologies to any of my pals who get weirded out by the practice.) If I have time, I should see if I can get my hands on a copy of one of those other Chapman books to see if I gain any further clarifications. (Maybe I should try to finish Culturally Responsive Teaching and the Brain by Zaretta Hammond before I start a new read!)

Monday, August 16, 2021

Random Thoughts from A (AQ) to Z (Zita)

 I couldn't decide what to focus on this week with my reflections. Usually, I like to tie them all together thematically - some of these connections can be "complex" as Doug Peterson noticed (such as his commentary on my blog a few weeks ago on Tracking, Timing and Tiring that combined my thoughts on the gym, my AQs and my ETFO SA). I couldn't detect a unifying element, so instead, I'm going to write some random reflections based on this week's events.

A (1st letter) - AQ course

I finished running my first Queen's University AQ course. I've referenced it frequently over the past few weeks. "Frequently" is actually an understatement; I checked my blog history and I have mentioned it in passing every single week since July 19! Summer AQs (taking or teaching them) keep me from getting bored or restless. Summer 2021 was a different experience than my previous AQ teaching opportunities (in Summer 2018 and Summer 2019) with another university. Although I was quite uncertain when I began, I felt very supported by the Queen's CTE staff. They provided lots of links, handouts, and even a Zoom meet on August 7 to help their AQ facilitators understand the process. They are very clear (some may call it strict) with deadlines and overdue assignments, but there is comfort in that kind of structure. As for the participants, I only saw the faces or spoke live to very few of the candidates, so the only way I "knew" them is through their assignments or discussion posts. I get the feeling that this late summer TL Pt 1 AQ that began August 8 is going to be quite a contrast from the one before. The last group consisted of 18 individuals. This class has just 4. With fewer participants, I can respond more frequently and even partake in some of the assignments myself. Last time, I was still getting used to the onQ D2L system but now, I have a better working knowledge of the virtual environment. I also get the sense that the candidates are interested in each other as people and not just as classmates whose posts they will need to respond to for marks. I actually got teary-eyed at the compassion and assistance they've already demonstrated. I can't wait to spend more time with these humans!

D (4th letter) - Dining

I know it's not the healthiest activity, but I love eating in restaurants. On Tuesday, I went to Korean BBQ at Chako. It was so nice to mimic a buffet experience with my husband and daughter. The restaurant employees were cautious and attentive. They recorded data on all who entered, wore masks, kept guests apart, and themselves kept their distance as much as possible. I wonder if there's anything we can apply to school re-opening that the restaurants have done? (PS - This week's food outings also included Great Canadian Bagel, Tim Hortons, McDonald's and Mary Brown's.)

L (12th letter) - Lines for Service Ontario 

On Friday, I took my son to a local Service Ontario to get his identification card. He had an appointment but it was still a dauntingly long line that greeted us when we arrived. His appointment was at 1:00 pm and he was finished at 2:30 pm. The backlog is despair-inducing. My friend's son travelled all the way out to Kingston to complete his final driver's test. I'm sure the workers themselves must be feeling a lot of pressure and I hope they aren't getting verbally lambasted by members of the public. They are trying their best. I see some parallels with education workers. The demands may be intense and I wish that they will be treated with kindness and understanding as much as possible. 

T (20th letter) - Thrifting

On August 3, I mentioned that I went to Value Village with my daughter to buy a few things. Some items did not fit, and I have promised myself now not to buy "aspirational pants" (a term coined by my husband to refer to pants that don't yet fit but you hope to fit into in the future). I took the pants in for an exchange yesterday and walked out with even more clothes. This was necessary because I did a significant weeding of my entire clothing collection and there are a lot of items that were in bad shape and/or could no longer fit. I love shopping at what my sister calls "VV Boutique" because I can buy a lot of things for very little, and I feel like I am making a small contribution to the environment by giving old things a new home. I have been focusing on picking clothes "for school". If I get a chance, I will have to post some pictures of the things I bought, to see if they fit other people's perceptions of what counts as "teacher clothes" (or even "work clothes"). 

Z (26th letter) - Zita, Tina

From August 10 - 12, I was the tech support for Tina Zita's ETFO Summer Academy session on More Than Words. As I said to the participants, I am a member of the Tina Zita Fan Club. Tina is talented, smart, humble, thoughtful and such a joy to learn from and with. She gave the participants lots of time to explore and play with the tools and ideas she shared and I know they appreciated it. She was the one who made my experience rewriting the OCT TL AQ guidelines so rewarding and gave tips so that I could replicate some of the strategies she used with my own TDSB TL Expected Practice writing document. Tina's motto should be "Create-Coke-Continue", because she is constantly making wonderful things digitally and is constantly offering her abilities and expertise to others. She was in PEI on an iPad during our course and made it look easy! Julie, thank you for allowing me to support Tina (truly, I didn't do much) and hanging out with such a wonderful human being for three days. 

Monday, August 9, 2021

Practically Perfect Days

 On Tuesday evening, I had a revelation. As far as revelations go, it wasn't a huge one, but it was significant enough to write about. I was getting ready for bed when I realized that I had just experienced a "practically perfect" day. That encouraged me to mentally enumerate all the different things that made it such.

  • Breakfast at a restaurant (my favourite Eggs Benedict at Markham Station)
  • Scrapbook creation time
  • Contact with friends
  • Nap time
  • Time to read (finally finished The Inconvenient Indian by Thomas King)
  • Meaningful errands with my son (to get his second vaccination)
  • Enjoyable errands with my daughter (shopping for great deals at Value Village)
  • Conversation with my sister
  • A meal I haven't had in ages (Manchu Wok) for dinner, shared with my spouse
Note: I didn't take photos of all of these moments, but I have several "near-representations" from Animal Crossing New Horizons and Animal Crossing New Leaf, so I'll include them here as visuals. (They are "breakfast in a restaurant", "hanging out with friends", "napping" and "shopping".)





There are some obvious patterns present - eating (out) and sleeping being two primary delights - and I was able to replicate versions of some of my favourite things later in the week, when I had friends come over and when I myself visited friends.  Thanks Candice, Wendy, Farah, Renee and Dean for spending time with me (and allowing me to spend time with them) - face-to-face social contact with members outside my home is something I really missed during the pandemic and truly appreciate much more now.



The feelings that this "practically perfect" few days generated were contentment, joy, and relaxation. I think I appreciated these things I did this week more because they aren't regular events. Would the special aura diminish if I got to do them every single day? It got me wondering what my students would say a "practically perfect" day would entail. 

I also think that my busy July also made me enjoy the "down time"; I don't regret for a moment doing my Queen's University AQ facilitation (new late summer cohort starts this week) or my ETFO Summer Academies (tech supporting a different session also this week) because I like having things to do. It's a different type of pleasure I gain from activities like those. It may also help that these enjoyable activities are ones I have control over, unlike what looks like it will be another unpredictable school year approaching. I'll enjoy those practically perfect days when I get them, because who knows how long they'll be around!


Monday, August 2, 2021

Timing, Tracking, and Tiring

 The "theme" of this week was assessment. I ran my second ETFO Summer Academy session, this one entitled "SA-04-22 SEEING AND SUPPORTING STUDENT GROWTH: NEW PERSPECTIVES ON ASSESSMENT AND EVALUATION " with fellow AML vice-president Chelsea Attwell from July 27-29. I also composed the second set of progress reports for my Queen's University Teacher-Librarianship Part 1 AQ candidates and continue to mark their assignments. The last day for this cohort is technically August 13 and I have agreed to run a late summer TL Pt 1 AQ for Queen's starting August 8, 2021. (Sign up if you are interested!) During all of this, my husband and I have been attending classes at our CrossFit gym, which has only relatively recently begun indoor sessions. The coaches are shaping it into an "On-Ramp Program", which I'll describe in depth later in this post.

I chose three descriptive words to encapsulate some of the big ideas that ETFO Summer Academy, the TL AQ and my gym experience all share in common - timing, tracking, and tiring.







"Timing is everything". I had a hard time narrowing down who first said this. Timing really is important. Chelsea and I kept close watch on our timing during the three day, 12-hour course. We weren't rigid, but we knew that if we did not try to keep to the general plan, certain portions of the course would have to be eliminated. It's so easy to get on a tangent and talk longer than we should. Chelsea even came up with a clever way to keep track of what stage we were at, by highlighting the boxes on our e-plan sheet, a template I learned to use from my Presenter's Palette course. Tracking attendance was also useful, so we were aware if anyone had missed a concept and needed a quick summary. I found taking the attendance helpful for me, so that I could greet participants by name as I let them into the Zoom call. 

I feel like I finally have mastered the work flow for my all-online AQ course, and so much of that achievement relates to timing and tracking. I have found that reserving a certain time each evening to check my course helps me not feel overwhelmed. Evening check-ins mean that the candidates themselves have had all day to submit tasks. I also deliberately timed how long it takes me on average to check all the discussion posts each day (60-120 minutes) so that I don't despair if I see a large number of posts that need reading. (The candidates seem to produce as a group about 50 posts per day.) My spreadsheet that I use to track their work has been a wonderful tool. It helped me consolidate my comments into a single spot, so that I could refer to concrete examples when I recorded my feedback alongside their second set of progress reports.  

How ironic it is, then, that I have rejected both timing and tracking for my exercising adventures. The pandemic meant that I had a 16 month gap from the last time I worked out regularly. I had made a lot of progress from April 2018 until March 2020, thanks to the great coaches at my gym and my workout buddy. Teaching online off and on for months at a time for the last year and a half meant that there were days that I barely moved. I stopped wearing my FitBit because knowing I had only walked less than 1000 steps in a day was not a motivating piece of information. I am worse now than when I first began. Time is my new enemy at the gym. I am used to being the slowest and weakest participant and I want neither the minutes nor the other statistics to remind me of this fact. My numbers don't change enough to inspire me, and no one else needs to know that I can't even manage ten-pound weights anymore, so I deleted the Sugar WOD app from my phone. The On-Ramp program introduces new elements, like weight lifting, which has been quite challenging for me, since I have been struggling with movements that I used to be familiar with, never mind new actions. We have been told repeatedly that we are only in competition with ourselves, not others, but old me is kicking current me's butt. My husband finds joy in completing the workouts and the buzz of being exhausted from exertion after maximum effort, but for me, I lack the sense of accomplishment; the conclusion is only the beginning of sore muscles. Despite my grumpy attitude, I am still attending class three times a week. I may be D.P. (Disposition Poor) Maliszewski, but, like going to the dentist, this is something I have to do. It's just going to take a long time for me to get back into the routine and see any progress. That progress will be marked, not with numbers, but with fewer aches and better fitting clothes - a different way to track.

All three events can be tiring. We had an "open forum" section during our Summer Academy, and many people wanted to discuss how to assess more effectively so that it didn't eat up so much of their time, leaving them tired and robbing them of moments for rest and leisure. So many of the candidates taking the AQ class are simultaneously juggling full-time jobs and parenting responsibilities. I'm always tired after the gym - that goes without saying. Take naps, rest up, choose wisely ... because we can't give up (on learning, on living healthy lives, and on doing better). I'll end with a few of the tweets from #ETFOsa21 as a reminder about assessing ourselves and others.